Monday, July 14, 2014

BASTILLE DAY - Fête nationale - Le Quatorze Juillet



FRANCE BANS ALL GMO CORN - Le Connexion, June 2014 - Vive La France!


Corn & Sunflowers - Charras, Fr.




This year the farmers planted loads of corn & wheat across from sunflowers, adjacent to sunflowers.  Some of the sunflowers échappé (escaped), hiding in the corn and wheatfields.  










And here is my friend, Madame S. from Le Pontillou.  We are looking for two of her chickens who also "escaped".  I asked her if she thought her chickens were as stupid as most people say, & she said:  "Mais non! ils savent qui les nourrit." (But no! they know who feeds them)   Ahhh, If only we humanoids were as intelligent.  


Madame S






Moth on Clover

We have such grand designs - an apron full of plans...how fine to be a moth simply extracting some nectar from a clover plant. 







How to Be Happy
Another Memo to Myself

You start with your own body
then move outward, but not too far.
Never try to please a city, for example.
Nor will the easy intimacy 
in small towns ever satisfy that need
you have only whispered in the dark.
A woman is a beginning.
She need not be pretty, but must know
how to make her own ceilings
out of all that is beautiful in her.
Together you must love to exchange
gifts in the night, and agree
on the superfluity of ribbons,
the fine violence of breaking out
of yourselves.  No matter,
it's doubtful she will be enough for you,
or you for her.  You must have friends
of both sexes.  When you get together
you must feel everyone has brought 
his fierce privacy with him 
and is ready to share it. Prepare
yourself though to keep something back;
there's a center in you 
you are simply a comedian
without.  Beyond this, it's advisable
to have a skill.  Learn how to make something;
food, a shoe box, a good day.
Remember, finally, there are few pleasures
that aren't as local as your fingertips.
Never go to Europe for a cathedral.
In large groups, create a corner
in the middle of the room.

          Stephen Dunn

Saturday, July 12, 2014

THE CRUCIBLE OF MEMORY - Gesture to the Infinite & A Chagallian Moon


Champignonnière (Mushroom bed) from D M I spectacles -  Michala Marcus, Odille Pellissier, Charente, Fr.




Vidéodanse - Eglise de Rauzet*

ALERT:  Tonight, another full MOON - it always brings a soupçon of madness...


"I am out to induce a psychic shock into my painting, one that is always
motivated by pictorial reasoning, that is to say a fourth dimension." -  Marc Chagall


"Waters of Life" - Painting by Marc Chagall

Marc Chagall
"Most people consider Marc Chagall a painter.  He was in fact a human transistor. His brush on the canvas completed a circuit that began in his soul, traveled through a mysterious cobalt otherworld, zigged across his mind and zagged into our reality plane. The unusual frequency Chagall tuned in is timeless. His floating farmers, loving brides, flying fish, fiddle playing goats and vignettes of shtetl life long ago cover the mind like a nighttime January snowfall - quietly...steadily...gently."  - Jaime Martorano, Photographer, Digital Artist - Triphoney.com

He Had a Lifelong Taste for Flying
                                       
                                      ...figures
more often lovers than beggars
sometimes peasants:  here a woman
floats in the night sky above a Russian town,

head and body myseriously separate.
A workman falls through a fractured sky

dangles below a parachute that looks
like a handkerchief folded into a triangle.

Angels, fishes, goats and rabbis,
but it's Bella I return to, Bella of the flowers

who lifted his feet and bent him backwards
for a kiss; Bella, who rose above the picnic

like a balloon, and almost flew away for joy
as if the bird in his hand had given her its heart,

As if her heart was the bird in his hand.

Penelope Cline, The Wild Green Chagallian Tarot


The Moon, The Wild Green Chagallian Tarot

A dear friend sent me this lyrical tarot deck by Penelope Cline, who used the whimsical figures of Marc Chagall for inspiration.  Twenty-two major arcana cards painted in gouache on heavy watercolor paper. "Poetry in Paint" - www.figtreepress.co.uk

I've laid the cards out under a moon beam.  The Perigee moon in July is also known as the Buck Moon & Thunder Moon.  Young male deer will be sprouting their antlers as the first of three visible supermoons makes its appearance in 2014.


My brother Mark -  San Rafael, Ca.

Meanwhile, back in California, digging with a pick and shovel through his storage unit - amidst the six chess sets and 35,000 books - my brother found this Polaroid photo of Kev & I on the Sonoma Train, circa 1985.


We seem improbably young. We had just bought our first home in Forest Knolls, on the edge of Papermill Creek.  We had to beg, borrow - stopping short of stealing - to get our foot through the door of California real estate.  We were taking a chance on this house, situated on a flood plain. In 1982, a 100 year flood had swept thru Forest Knolls & the surrounding towns and counties.  I was living in Fairfax, Ca. at the time, but had gone to Scammons Lagoon in Baja, Ca. with a bunch of kayakers to explore the largest Gray Whale nursery in Baja. The mothers & baby whales came right up to the kayaks; I had the privilege of touching a baby whale.


On our way home from Baja we stopped overnight at a hotel in L.A., turned on the news and discovered that West Marin, Ca. had been declared a disaster area, the National Guard called out. The water was so high in the town of Fairfax that boats were being used to get around the village and residents were kayaking down Bolinas Ave.  Who knew we didn't have to go all the way to Baja to kayak?! 

Neighboring San Anselmo 1982 historic flood


Since the house had flooded before and there was the likelihood of it happening again, no flood insurance was to be had. And we probably could not have afforded it even if there were.  And sure enough, a few years later, the rain, she came, and the waters started rising again.  I wrote a poem about it, "On the Edge of Papermill Creek".  One of the illustrious literary lions from our writing group, Mike R. kindly sent it off to the Coastal Post, where it was published in the May 1, 1995 issue.  But by then we were living ON the water in a houseboat in Sausalito on Issaquah Dock.  



Issaquah Dock, Sausalito, CA.

When it began raining non-stop in France in November, each day became another soggy Groundhog Day; a répétition of rivers rising, memories "flooding" back. I looked for the poem and badgered my poor old writing pals to see if they could conjure up a copy, but alas, nada, & unless there was a hard copy somewhere the only other record was on an old hard drive in a computer bone yard somewhere.

Then in May, back in California, one of the moldy storage boxes coughed up a copy from the Coastal Post - dingue! (unreal)

On The Edge of Papermill Creek

It will never stop raining in this town.
Everything is sinking,
roads, spirits, bank accounts.
Only the creeks and reservoirs are rising,
Papermill, Lagunitas, Nicasio.

We should have put our house on stilts,
like smart birds, 
and planted Weeping Willows along the banks
to stem the erosion (those ladies love 
to get their feet wet.)

Instead,
we made love in the sunlight,
under an archway of oranges

In the moonlight
behind a slumbering pear tree

at dusk
while a blue deer captured 
our garden.

In the dark, wet morning,
while houses slide slowly
down the cheekbones of hillsides,
I am awakened by the sound of your hands
insistent as wild Madrones 
against the French doors.

I watch you stream barefooted 
to the deck
and arc breadballs to the baby steelheads,
leaping and shining as the sky splits apart,
and rain pours down like quicksilver.

It will never stop raining in this town, 
but I know somewhere out there 
in the Cadillac desert
an Ocotillo is on fire. 



Now here's where it gets kind of spooky, fourth dimensional, Twilight Zone-ish.

Jacques Henri Lartigue, 1931 - Renee Perle

I woke up in the middle of the night to the dark, rushing sounds of Papermill Creek spilling over its banks, closing in on the house.  From my bed I could see trees ripped from their roots, amputated branches caught on boulders - all spinning in a wild vortex, an unstoppable maelstrom.  I did not leave the bed, but could see the water mounting the deck, covering the kitchen floorboards.  A line from Whitman's "Leaves of Grass" was running thru my head:  "I Sing the Body Electric".  I felt my body to be electrified & some grander portion of myself split off, rose above me, floating out over the creek where I opened my arms and with all my strength & all my might, I "pushed" the waters back. 

Marc Chagall - Stained glass window from a little church at Tudeley in Kent

"I sing the body electric,
The armies of those I love engirth me and I engirth them,
They will not let me off till I go with them, respond to them,
And discorrupt them, and charge them full with the charge of the soul."
- Walt Whitman


Picasso Painting in Light - 1949

Yeah, I know it sounds crazy, but that's my story and I'm sticking to it.  Our adjacent neighbors, a harpist and guitarist from the group Platero, had their house on stilts, so they were ok, but everyone else along the creek flooded...except for us.  Much later I found out the 100th episode of Twilight Zone was titled, "I Sing the Body Electric".


Toni Frisselle - 1939
We all have these unexplained events in our lives.  How do we know what we know? Hotpockets of knowing -- we call it magic or a sixth sense. And taken to another level, sometimes we can impact outcomes. 

I love this piece below my brother wrote in response to the Tarot forecasting I did of my friend Annie's moment of passing when I got back from California.  I think it applies to all of the esoteric arts and that which we cannot see, but know is there, like the invisible hand that supports us.   



Eerie about the cards. I've heard many stories like that and it is a reminder that we are all entangled at a quantum level. Did you know that there is no such thing as a true physical touch? Our atoms have fields that repel the fields of other atoms as they approach. There is never any physical contact between the nuclei of atoms (except in the extreme case of neutron stars, which are the dead and eternal corpse of the largest of suns). We can never really surpass our physical manifestation. And yet, at the subatomic level, we are forever interacting with each other. Experiments have shown electrons separated by vast distances suddenly changing their spin to match that of a sister electron artificially altered. How little we know and understand about the unseen. The cards are a gesture to the infinite. Is it any wonder that such a vibrant invisible reality must be in some sense available to us?   Mk

Annie & Bill - Geocaching Triumph - Abbaye de Boschaud - May 2013

Blog dedicated to Ann Duvall who graced us with her presence - Feb. 1, 1948 - June 15, 2014.  I feel you all around me. 

Anna Oneglia - annaoneglia.com

pining      requires

            every green chassis brushes a sunny dominance
dog ghosts the garden          merrily absence boasts presence

gesture upon gesture, sans discussion, the body of love rises
         splashing cool water       in the smooth chamber

        beneath the climbing vine, the mound of earth has settled
grief requires a body and someone looking back

             faraway whistling,              hips rusting


                                    Stephanie Marlis from Fine

Be alive in this moment; be conscious of your treasures. Be spontaneous with your joy and thankfulness. Show your gratitude. It's time to fall in love again.-- Lazaris

*Photos from the Eglise at Rauzet, a couple of miles from us where a dance collective
did some posing in the upper reaches of the Nave.  Beautiful to see the human shapes against the stone.  




Saturday, June 21, 2014

SCAFFOLDING ON THE MEMORY PALACE, Moons & Macaroons



Don't tell me the moon is shining;
show me the glint of light on broken glass.
        - Anton Chekov
 
Friday the 13th, Lune de Miel - "Honey Moon" - Charras, Fr 

 
The Hare Jumped Over the Moon - Jodie Tucker


Stories was everything and everything was stories;
I was searching for the "gold tooth in God's crooked smile -
from "Searching for the Wrong-eyed Jesus" - BBC documentary about the American South

I warmed my bones in California where it was already July in May - gelato and firecrackers, open-toed shoes, air conditioning & sunscreen.  When I left France it was raining & when I returned it was raining.  It's been raining since November.  My eyes burned on the way to Sonoma from SF airport; Hwy 101 has lots of potholes. Still shiny, but California's promised land feels depleted, like a canvas stretched and painted over too many times.  They did indeed "pave paradise and put up a parking lot."

 CARS & COFFEE - Everywhere
"Should I kill myself or have a cup of coffee?" - Albert Camus

I'm not used to so many cars - two lanes of traffic to my left, two lanes to my right; I felt like a pinball ricocheting across the asphalt.  And you can't swing a dead cat without hitting a caffeine purveyor within a two meter radius. The mugs are huge; you could fit 20 teeny weeny French espressos into one Starbucks Mocha Cookie Crumble Frappaccino Blended Beverage (doesn't mean I didn't do my best to consume as many as I could.) And since everything else is gluten free and organic, it all works out!


Coffee Poster

Arriving at my Empress friend Dawn's oasis in Sonoma, she feeds me guacamole and bean chips. Since I'd spent the previous night half-asleep on Charles De Gaulle's airport floor, I was ravenous. (There had been a mix-up with hotel reservation).  I don't think I've ever tasted anything so good.

I climbed into the big clawfoot bathtub & soaked away the travel cooties.  On the guest room night stand was Stewart Warren's book of poetry:  "Here There Is Also Burning" - poems of place and poems of ardor.  In one of my blogs I wrote about Warren's book, "Pointing to My Heart:  Poetry Journey through the Visconti Sforza Tarot," so I am thrilled at this synchronicity, finding a kindred spirit here.




It is the hour of the Wolf, between night & dawn, ghosts and demons.  I am fried, but I scribble some notes which I won't be able to decipher later on, except for this passage which remained semi-legible from his poem Jemez, "...some happiness has descended or risen - anyway location is not what we thought.  My hand rises without prompting as I'm reminded to wave at travelers, these holy shapes and forms, this grand migration of ours."  With apologies to Warren if I have slaughtered his finely crafted words. Tarot threads in and out of his writing. There is a poem titled "The Hermit" & another poem, "In the Cards," references the Page of Wands -  buy his book & you won't be sorry. 

Next day in the early morning mist we take Maddie, Dawn's Jack Russell terrier, for a walk in the vineyards across the road to see the crooked armed grapevines pocketed on the sides of the rolling, golden hills of California. Hard squint & it could be France.

Caneros Vineyard - Sonoma


I've brought French Macarons with me all the the way from Paris *** Laduree's.  Not long ago there was a Macaron "smackdown" between Ladurees' and Pierre Hermes' pastry shops, both on Rue Bonaparte in Paris.  Who cares who won?  They are both fantastic.  But here's the kicker:  later in the week I went shopping at Costco in Novato and they had the same Macarons for a third of the price.  America = the land of plenty good eats. The variety & quality of the food made me dizzy as I walked thru the shops, bedazzled by exotic & home cooked take-a-ways; if I moved back I'd never cook again.  We eat a lot of leeks in France. 





NOSTALGIA -
 
Origin, late 18th century (in the sense 'acute homesickness'): modern Latin (translating German Heimweh 'homesickness'), from Greek nostos 'return home' + algos 'pain'.

There is a comfort in the familiar; I don't need a GPS to find my way around & the ease of acquisition is in marked contrast to days spent navigating French hardware stores or auto repair places trying to find a windshield wiper.  Yet, I now feel like a foreigner, astonished that neighbors aren't giving each other Vervaine and parsnips or freshly laid eggs.  And where is the laundry drying in the sun?  There are leaf blowers instead of aproned women sweeping the sidewalks.  I am  "homesick" for two homes, two countries, straddling two very different worlds.

I do as many readings as I can for friends & family who are "tangled up in blue" 

"Blue is glory and power, a wave, a particle, a vibration, a resonance, a spirit, a passion, a memory, a vanity, a metaphor, a dream. Blue is a simile.  Blue, she is like a woman." from Sacré Bleu, Christopher Moore.  

I see everyone I can, spend precious time with a friend who is dying; the time slips through my fingers.  I squeeze in a week at Harbin Hot Springs in northern CA, soaking and divining.  No cameras, no electronic devices, no internet. 

                                                                The Hot Pool - Harbin Hot Springs, Middletown, CA.



                                                                      Yoga & Meditation at the Temple


                                                    Grand Tableau Reading for Dawn, Lenormand Revolution Deck



At the 11th hour,  I go through the last of the storage items my poor friend has been schlepping around for a few years -  the Memory Palace in crates, full of photographs, poems, short stories, Art Deco hats, crystals etc. A mixture of pain and joy, a recognition of that other self who lived a very different life.

I found a poem my brother wrote me for my birthday in 1998:


Before, when work was the
Book of Numbers, all the
world was windows.

Windows are the promise,
sly tempters who are 
sometimes mirrors.  They
reveal possibility, and hope.

Now is the Day of Doors.

There are no certainties
on the other side.  No 
visions.  No revealed
Day.  But the door, once
opened, surrenders the
Universe.

And you are a window.
And you are a door.
The future opens in you
like Hinges of Light. 

Mark Kreighbaum

                                                             
                                                                  Sunrise on the Solstice, Charras, France



                                                                                       Chateau at Sunset



'Cause you're a sky full of stars
I'm going to give you my heart

'Cause you're a sky full of stars
I wanna die in your arms

You're a sky, you're a sky full of stars
Such a heavenly view
You're such a heavenly view

-Coldplay

LIVE TO THE POINT OF TEARS
             - Albert Camus 


  And if you are in the area, please join us for the Vernissage/gallery opening for our
new exhibit at Chateau Sainte Catherine outside of Marthon. 




Next time: Athena & The Trees, another anniversaire, "Three Things",  Adieu to Annie & Gesture to the Infinite.  What can't be said shall be Wept.



Tuesday, April 29, 2014

A MEMORY PALACE & The Keys to the Museum of Innocence

"What matters in life is not what happens to you,
but what you remember and how you remember it"
   - Gabriel Garcia Marquez  1927 - 2014

Some blossoms in the orchard - Chateau de Charras

Soon I will be on a train, then on a plane back to San Francisco...memories are flooding in; all the friends & relatives I will see and the eras we've shared.  It may be my last trip back to the states.

I want to build a Memory Palace, like the one Mira Bartok constructed in her memoir "The Memory Palace," to cope with the devastation of a ruined family and a schizophrenic mother.  An excerpt from her book:

A Memory Palace.  A man named Matteo Ricci built one once.  I read about him the year after my accident.  Ricci, a Jesuit Priest who possessed great mnemonic powers, traveled to China in 1596 and taught scholars how to build an imaginary palace to keep their memories safe.  He told them that the size of the palace would depend on how much they wanted to remember.  To everything they wanted to recall, they were to affix an image; to every image, a position inside a room in their mind.  His idea went back to the Greek poet Simonides, who, one day while visiting friends at a palace, stepped outside for a minute to see who was at the door.  As soon as he went outside, the great hall came crashing down.  All the people inside were crushed to death and no one could recognize them.  Simonides, however, remembered where everyone stood at the party, and recalled them one by one so their bodies could be identified...Ricci told the scholars that the place to put each picture must be spacious, the light even and clear, but not too bright.  He said that the first image they should choose for their memory palace must arouse strong emotions." 


In Istanbul, Orhan Pamuk created his own Memory Palace in The Museum of Innocence

Orhan Pamuk - Museum of Innocence, Istanbul

"My Father's Death"
The Museum of Innocence, Istanbul
Pamuk did it for different reasons, based on the book he wrote by the same title, published in 2008. The book set in Istanbul is the account of a failed love affair between a wealthy businessman and a poor distant relation, Fusun, a shop girl. 

Füsun and Kemal are to be married after a trip around Europe together, but fate has something else in store altogether and they get separated for life after a night of intense love making. Kemal regards each object related to Füsun and their love, collected over the years, as portraying some discrete moment of happiness and bliss in the passage of those nine years. He decides to convert the Füsun’s house into a museum of innocence, including all these objects and also other memorabilia related to the period. 

The Museum of Innocence - Istanbul


Internalized memories rendered material and external. What Marquez says is true:  we can choose how and what to remember.

More Blossoms - Charras

And here's to forging new memories...


Gallery - Chateau Sainte Catherine

We had a successful April 19th opening, champagne flowed & Gabrielle's gorgeous canapes consumed with gusto! 


Cherub - Chateau Sainte Catherine

And Joyeux Anniversaire to my little Angel, Lisa.  Off into the sky we both have flown.  You are tucked inside my Memory Palace forever.